sorry for the lack of blogging last week! It was pretty crazy for me...

I'm the kind of person who doesn't lose sleep for academics either. It's just a given to prioritize sleep. But last week, God kinda took that from me X] and some days I just failed. But some other days I'd stay up writing a paper and then take an hour nap before waking up at 6am for that Jesus time XD by the end of the week, I tried to catch up on the lost sleep days but realized that more sleep than necessary doesn't help me function. Only grace does.

Last week God also grew my respect for brothers and sisters and toppled my human thoughts about other Christians. An unnie I know has this saying that we are to be an "army of ants". Even though this generation is always looking for the next big worship leader like Hillsong or the next Billy Graham, that God is calling us to be a nameless and faceless generation, like an army of ants :) and each ant itself isn't weak, it can pull many times its weight! God's really been revealing to me how He's been moving in so many different people and ministries and completely toppling my prideful judgment in the process. He's really moving, and I feel that He something big in store for our campus!

He's been teaching me what it means to have confidence in His love... I feel like I know God and at the same time don't know Him at all, and I'd really like to set this coming week as time to simply get to know Him (and me) more. Understanding more of where identity comes from and who confidence of my identity doesn't come from how firm I stand, but how I lean on beloved Jesus.

We had an interesting incident with my dad, alcohol and a wallet this weekend too X]

I've been listening to this all day yesterday:

He's so invisible... and sometimes He feels so invisible to me too. But Holy Spirit is not an emotion. He's not a concept, or someone I accredit things to, but He's real, truly the Creator, truly the hope of the nations. And even when I can't feel Him, I wanna learn to love Him with all my heart, all of my soul, all of my strength, all of my mind. Because He loves me first in this way. I have a testimony about Jesus, He carries me through my worst storms, I only call on Jesus, I'm leaning on His everlasting arms.