I'm having trouble sitting down and praying, so I'm going to be a modernist and blog out my thoughts hehe

I just read the passage for this morning, and for some reason I've been ignoring God these past few days, ever since the prayer gathering :(
So out of Christian duty I finished the reading in maybe like twenty seconds but the verse that won't leave my mind is 31: "Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. 'You of little faith,' he said, 'why did you doubt?'"

It's kinda like that for me I guess. Doubt is a sneaky little nugget. I always deny doubt in my life. I claim to be an optimist by mouth, but I've come to realize that beneath layers I'm actually a huge doubter and it's all the more worse that I refuse to see it or reveal it.

My faith is like a firefly. It's so intermittent. I'll get really excited about God and my relationship with Him and how incredible He is, and step out into the water. And then a wind will blow and I will be afraid. Such small things can push me down and blow out my light, even the littlest thoughts.

But on the bright side, it's equally easy to get back into high spirits, so I'm going to be like Peter today and ask, just like Peter, "Lord, if it's you, tell me to come to you on the water." I hope God reads blog posts heH


I tried to start blogging and I started a tumblr, except mine's just a culture pot and nothing real deep
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