I was looking up the word for 'self-realization' more than once during last week for the two Spanish papers I had to write. Apparently it's autorealización... but there's actually no direct translation, so it actually might not be?

I feel like a lot has been going on... and God's been reestablishing learned lessons. I feel like I've been learning a ton about Him, and learning a lot about myself along the way. I don't think I'm going to attempt to write a post with a clincher about it... there's been just too much abstract, inconsequential, but somewhat interesting thinking going on.

But on the practical side. What I have been learning... honestly, Lent commitments have been failing a little, partly because of sudden busy-ness and also partly because I'm not very proactive about them... and I had purposefully set my Lent goals in order to be more proactive. Fail... Praying has also been a little tough... it's hard to form the right words without feeling like the feelings and desires are forced.

But the good part of all of this was that I really had to go back to the basics. Kinda like last week, I learned what I do/feel is pretty inconsequential. It's such a small, contained problem in the midst of God's infinitely bigger plan. So I've been taking some advice and I'm just gonna bask in God's presence for a while.

There's a passage in Deuteronomy 6 that addresses the law about loving God. Basically, the Israelites had to have such a strong impression about loving God that it was like writing it on their foreheads and hands. When the children ask why this Love commandment exists, the parents were to tell them about God's love for them, how he brought them out of Egypt and cared for them in the desert...

So I've been writing on my hands/wrists as a reminder. I feel like God's love is so frickin' huge, but I walk around so often so unaware of it. I can't be satisfied with that.

So please continue to ask me about my Lent progress, whether it has to do with writing or sharing the gospel, because I'm more likely than not going to shirk it. Thanks y'all!!
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