[ I'M ON A BOAT ]

Hey guys, I'm generally not the greatest blogger. I'm also bad at structurally organizing my thoughts, regardless, I hope you bear with me.

As I may have mentioned to few of you at random times, I am heavily considering going to a ministry school. I am not sure when this would take place, but I feel a heavy calling that it should be during my undergrad. Mainly, I'm considering Calvin college or somewhere, where I could pursue a religious education as well as a secular education simulataneously. But yeah, thats just context of my condition from going into the fast.coincedentally, the fast has coincided with the 40days of prayer, (which is a prayer room at the ULC open 24/7 for 40 days for prayer for campus, life, non-christians etc).

So, going into my first week, I gave up meat only. Physically I didn't feel that stretched, Although I did crave meat at some times and it did make me wonder about my fast which in turn, directed my thoughts to God. However, i was still full everyday. Throughout the first week I was able to go to the prayer room 3 times (i think) and i really enjoyed the experience, I feel like the prayer room along with the fact that i was putting aside i really enjoyed (not required) really helped me in my prayer life. I felt like i was really able to focus on God and the things in my mind I needed to pray about. I even kept up with the BRP while i was there as well. After that, I had my gender retreat with my AIV guys during which I was able to bond with alot of the guys of the group ( since i didnt know a lot of them very well before). I also learned a lot about dating, marriage, manliness in a Christ context, and how to better treat girls. This lasted through saturday. And besides the fact that I missed meat everytime i saw it, it wasnt that big of a deal for me, cuz it was something i could be without. Therefore I would conclude that the first week of my fast was good for my spiritual life, especially my prayer life.

However, week 2 was a little different. To start off, I wasnt able to go to sunday celebration because i was feeling ill that morning. I think it carried over to monday as well ( i also went to none of my classes on monday). Since that point I dont think my body ever got use to the liquid fast. I felt tired all the time, and despite sleeping for a relatively long period of time, I had no energy throughout the day. Regretfully I went on with the fast, despite my inability to spend extra time with God or anything. I realized this especially last night, where I faded in and out of my Wed. Small group the whole time. Therefore, I decided to no longer continue with my liquid fast. Also, since i will be gone this weekend to an Intervarsity conference (MAC or Ministering Across Cultures), I felt like I needed regulate my eating schedule before that, or else I would get nothing else out of it. I regret that my week two was not as spiritually productive as my first week, but I feel like i learned alot about myself interms of how I can grow spiritually.

For starters, I realize that for me, I really need to push away things I indulge on or waste time on, in order to spend time on God. I feel like for me, i need to get past this stage before being able to do something like a long term liquid fast. I think that doing the liquid fast for me, just made me physically incapable of doing anything productive, instead i just did thing that required the least thought; such as aimlessly browse facebook, play tetris, etc etc. I realize that when i did try to delve into the word, that i was to uncomfortable to fully absorb or process what the Bible was trying to say. But yeah, I feel like that overall, this fast was good for me, in helping me earn how to distinguish when im doing things to deepen my relationship with God or just do things because people tell me to (which i often do alot, and just try to make it fit into the big picture)

But yeah, that's how the one desire fast went for me.

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I'M ON A BOAT
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He called out to them, “Friends, haven’t you any fish?” “No,” they answered. He said, “Throw your net on the right side of the boat and you will find some.” When they did, they were unable to haul the net in because of the large number of fish. [ JOHN XXI:V-VI ]
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