i'm not following the brp but i read isaiah 6, called "isaiah's commission," and its basically isaiah's encounter with God. the first couple of verses are about how isaiah wasnt able to see God until king uzziah died, who apparently was a king who abused his power and title and eventually punished by God. it wasnt until after his death that isaiah "saw the Lord, high and exalted, seated on a throne; and the train of his robe filled the temple" (v.2). this reminded me of the fact that even though there are things i committed to praying for and fasting about, i won't be able to understand or hear what God has to say if there are other things in the way. when there are things that serve as kings in our own lives, of course they'll distract us and keep us from focusing on God. on a side note, i really really like the imagery at the end of that verse "and the train of his robe filled the temple".. :)

when isaiah sees God in all his glory, he becomes distraught in verse 5:

this just makes me wonder when the last time was that i experienced God in that way, or if i ever have. have i ever been at a point where God becomes so real and all those adjectives that are always used to describe him become more than just words? i think it's at these times that should bring me to a point of even disgust with myself because i the contrast between us and God become clear and i can see how unclean i am. the rest of the chapter is kinda like the gospel on fast forward, at the end of which God asks "whom shall i send?" and isaiah says "here am i. send me!" all these things were reminders of what i should strive for not only during the fast but every single day, and to one day be able to say to him "send me."

hmm the fast has been ok so far, i've been having really good conversations with people and God's been showing me a of things i need to work on that i thought i'd already dealt with, i need to spend the next week being more proactive, especially with prayer.
prayer requests:

-plans for the summer, missions vs internship 

-trusting in God and people

-vulnerability