Hey, hey

So, like Jerry, I’m not the best blogger. In fact, this will be the first time that I have ever blogged, so I apologize in advance J.

For the first week of the fast, I gave up meat. When I went out to dinner with friends, the subject of fasting was brought up when they asked why I wasn’t eating meat. They then asked me why I was doing it, and I said it was to be closer with God. However, after thinking about it, I realized I didn’t really know that much about fasting. My mother is an intercessory prayer warrior, and has fasted many times. When I decided to participate in the fast, I asked her if she had any books on fasting. She gave me a few, and I decided for the first week of the fast I would concentrate on finding more about the subject. The book I read was Fasting: Why Should I? In short, the most important thing I learned was fasting is a means to get answers and direction from God. It should not be done to appear holy to men because “men will never meet your spiritual needs – only God can do that. Fasting comes through a sincere, yielding heart.”

The second week of my fast was….ok. I have been going through a lot of emotional problems this month, and it got to the point where I was sincerely considering dropping out – I had looked up bus tickets home and everything. I was also sick, so I didn’t think my body could handle being on just liquids. I decided to again keep away from meats and then desserts. This was an actual challenge for me, because my body always craves sugar (I guess it’s bad I’m that addicted). I was more conscious that I was giving up something this week. But every time I had yogurt or soup but not something sweet, I was reminded that I was fasting to better communicate with God.

I’m not going to lie, I did have one cookie this week, but after eating it I felt so guilty and regretted it immediately. I also felt that I didn’t spend any more time with God than I normally would. BUT, during the times that I did, I come to some great realizations about my personal life that helped me so much.

So…..I hope this isn’t too bad of blogging, and here’s a song that I absolutely love. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JQ8q7q5egus

Peace and love everyone